About me. Again.

[Hyraxylos]

I'm too lazy to go around the forum and see where I posted what part of my story, so I'll just make a thread to include the whole thing. This's about my spirituality and my condition of having two souls. In particular it's meant to address any questions anyone might have about the moody emo jerk in my subconscious, the one I refer to as "Master".

First I'd like to ask a question to the forum in general. Why are over half of the introductions (including mine) missing?

Here and there I've said that I have two souls. Master is the one who isn't controlling my body and typing this message. When Hyraxylos reincarnated into this human body he decided to split himself in half in order to bypass the memory loss that happens in reincarnation. (see this post for my beliefs on the nature of souls and on what I believe causes the memory loss) My purpose is to gather information about the human species from a first-hand perspective so that Master can analyze it, and Master's purpose is (or was, rather) to tell me things about myself that I otherwise wouldn't have figured out. We made a deal with one another when he finally revealed himself outright; he would tell me everything about my past life and his discoveries of metaphysics, and at the end of my current life he will devour my soul and totally become one with me. That part almost always alarms people who read it, but bear in mind that we WERE completely the same being at the very beginning.
He's locked up in one compartment of my mind and is constantly hungering for me. But since he can't reach me (yet), and because he's miserable and driven utterly mad by both his hunger and his own dark view of the world, he tries to take it out on me by "urging" me to do strange things that probably shouldn't be done. Often spontaneous things, like suddenly drop this post I'm writing and throw myself out the window of my room, or randomly light things on fire for no reason. He manipulates my negative emotions such as anger and fear, and leaves it up to my better judgement to leave them aside unless they're needed. I suspect though that when we merge his personality will become more like mine.
As for his name... I suppose that technically, since this isn't HIS body (although he occupies it, he doesn't/can't control it directly) he isn't "alive" in the definition I apply to a "living" soul like myself. In that case he'd probably go by the name he had before he died. But he started speaking to me long before I knew his name, and I didn't have anything to call him. At first he refused to reveal the name "Hyraxylos" to me out of some sort of snooty pride ("You have to EARN that knowledge first." -_- ), but in December 2006 I decided to join Draconomicon, the first otherkin forum I applied to. I didn't know what to call myself, so he just relented at that point and told me what name we used to go by.
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[Namhias]

[gcdm]

ohh....that clears alot of things, but still...
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[Hyraxylos]

In reply to a comment in the thread about my narrative I decided to post here instead as the discussion pertains more to my spirituality in general than my writing on the "incident".

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