My life is now an open book.

[Jasriella]

Well I joined this forum in hopes that I would find a community of people similar to me, and I hit the jackpot. I have learned more about other otherkins and myself than I could've thought possible and I thank all of you for it. The only problem is that I know more about the members here than I even do about myself, so what I'm going to do is lay out my life's story that has to do with me being otherkin. In this way I hope that some of you guys will be able to help me answer some life changing questions.

I think this all started when I was around 7 or so. Sometimes I would blabber on in my sleep in some strange language and my mother could never figure out for the life of hers what language it was, so she recorded it and sent it in to some linguistic center or something and they had no idea what is was and concluded that I was just dreaming stuff up. Well being 7 I never put any thought to it and went and lived out the next 7 or 8 years much the same as any other kid would. But I always had a thing for dragons, I loved them and could never get enough of them. Well around 10 or 12 years old, I had a pretty vivid dream that I was walking down a hallway, the carpet was brown and some pretty cool designs in a lighter brown and the walls looked a bit tan, also for some reason I don't recall there ever being a ceiling or lighting for that matter, but there was just enough light always surrounding me as I made my way down the hallway to see the walls. I never looked back to see if I was being followed but I had the constant feeling of being watched and I was terrified too. I remember some paintings but I don't recall any of them, almost like they were just grey canvases. Then I woke up, I don't know what significance this dream had but it stuck in my mind like a sore thumb and I still, after almost 8 years, remember it like I just woke up from it. Then ever since then I've had a dragon related dream at least once a week, again up until I was roughly 15 I never put any though to it. Sometimes I was an elder dragon teaching hatchings and young ones the ways of life and others I was with a dragon family. I remember one more that was pretty vivid and left me heartbroken when I woke up from it. This one happened a year, maybe two ago. I was a little hatching, maybe no more than a few weeks out of the egg. I was in a nest but from my view it looked like it was as big as a stadium, and my mother was there snuggling with me, rubbing me all over with her big snout and It felt so good and the love and affection that was flowing between us was immeasurable by any means, then shortly after I noticed what was going on I woke up and, odd as it may seem, I cried and wanted her back and haven't cried since I was maybe 10. That was when I put into serious consideration that I must've been a dragon in my past life and that I belong as one again. I still haven't had that vivid of a dream since, but I still get the dragon related ones every once in a while. I have also been found curled up in a nest in my room made of all of my pillows and my blankets every once in a while when I wake up. Now within the past year or so I have been developing an almost telepathic or psychic sense, or the sixth sense in a way. I can sometimes tell who is behind me before they even say something, I can often predict who is calling on the phone, I can calm animals down with a directive thought and touch (non-perverted), just little things here and there and it is slowly developing but I can't control it, it's like a hunch that I get and when I go with it it's sometimes right, but other times I get that feeling I can't tell what its trying to tell me and it drives me nuts but I guess I'll figure it out in due time.

This is about everything before I joined this forum, everything else you should already know but I'm alway open to questions and comments since my goal is to learn more about myself and other otherkin.
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Hyraxylos]

I'm glad you shared this. I'm curious about the various stories and perspectives of most otherkin.
This account contrasts pretty sharply to mine. I had only one person who really loved me and I was sort of bottom-rung with the tribe that adopted me, though the local humans were almost always impressed when I chose to show myself off. The flashbacks came in only bits and pieces before I made my oath to my other half, and came in complete sequences and events afterwards, but for a while after that I couldn't tell what either Suliathe or Hyraxylos looked like because they were always blurred out.

I don't think any of the visions really hurt me that much except for my death. Without Suliathe, there wasn't anything else worth caring about. You, by contrast, apparently had an actual FAMILY, along with the additional pain of losing more loved ones. I'm trying to figure out whether or not I should be envious.
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[Jasriella]

Well to add on to that "family" portion, apparently telling about this did something for me last night because I had another one of those vivid dreams. I couldn't make out the scenery or my mate but in a near crystal clear and coherent way I was holding my little hatchling and I remember that I said "Hi, I'm your daddy" and then I got all emotional at the thought that I was a father and cradled him. Then I woke up and about got all emotional again. It's nice that I'm now being able to piece together my draconic family but it really hurts to know that I'm at the other end of the universe in a separate body, unable to even see my children (if this and the past dreams have any truth to them that is).
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[ZoaKane]

Very fine read I'd say. I don't recall anything like that in my experience. All I ever got was a liking to raw bloody meets and a powerful stomach. Never once got sick if you can believe it. As for any extraordinary human I had a heightened sense of everything. Luckily I kind of had help understanding thanks to the fact Roark is possessed with Auroara. She was very much like a mother to us. Eventually I will discover how to do what my brother had done (only because of Auroara. Little jealous) and be my true self.
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never again will i look back in vain
cause today's not the past,
I don't need to relive it.

[Jasriella]

Well here was something really strange but cool. When I was getting ready to go to bed it felt like there was something in my eyes and it was driving me nuts so I went to the bathroom to check out what was going on in the mirror and I just stared at my eyes for almost 5 minutes strait for they were slits . It was so cool, when I looked at the light they narrowed to a verticle sliver and when I looked back to watch them adjust they went back to a regular slit. Eventually I had to stop though for my mother had to go to the bathroom so I went to bed with this even fresh in my mind.

This was after I was meditating for about 30 minutes by the way. But it was so cool .
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Hyraxylos]

[Roark]

[Jasriella]