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dfangd
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I feel like we should group hug, or something.
... ooonly joking.
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Roark
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Joined: 05 Jun 2008
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Location: Running with the eyes of a devil.
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| Posted: Wed 04 Feb 2009 8:40 Post subject: |
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Thank you all I was really depressed about the whole issue and I felt that I really had to let it all out, and in this I guess I did an alright job. As I said I will try to let my guard down to better try to let people in. And I am sorry if I offended anyone.
And to Galadreil Auroara absolutely hates that I carry all the baggage I have, she is always there to say everything is alright. I always feel as though I fight all alone, though she’s even though she’s with me I can’t face this can’t erase this, I won’t embrace this anymore. I can’t believe that the way it’s use to be I always had to see the brighter side of things so I don’t lose my faith, and now the sun has gone away, it’s getting colder everyday. So before I freeze to death there’s something I should say.
And that is Auroara I am sorry for the grief I express, I want nothing more then to be happy while I’m with you, truth be told Auroara, anytime I do feel this way, I see you and know that it’s not so bad but as I said it is so hard to let it go even though I want to so badly. I know you speak to me now telling me that you’re always there and in the end you are all I really have.
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Jasriella
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Joined: 19 Nov 2008
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Location: Minot, ND
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| Posted: Wed 04 Feb 2009 10:53 Post subject: |
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| I can’t believe that the way it’s use to be I always had to see the brighter side of things so I don’t lose my faith, and now the sun has gone away, it’s getting colder everyday. So before I freeze to death there’s something I should say. |
Now I'm hoping that you mean this figuratively. I don't want to try an intervention when I have no means of doing so  .
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| And that is Auroara I am sorry for the grief I express, I want nothing more then to be happy while I’m with you, truth be told Auroara, anytime I do feel this way, I see you and know that it’s not so bad but as I said it is so hard to let it go even though I want to so badly. I know you speak to me now telling me that you’re always there and in the end you are all I really have. |
Would'nt it just be easier for you to say this to her yourself? After all you two are one if I'm not mistaken.
You need to stop letting things get to you. I'm no good at it myself and am struggling with it as well. But you need stop and smell the roses. Realize that there is good in this world and cherish what you two can. At least you have someone that you can trust %110. You keep letting things get to you and eventually you're going to do something you'll regret. Just try to loosen up ok? I know times are tough right now but just stay strong buddy  .
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Hyraxylos
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Joined: 13 Jun 2007
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Location: Atlanta, GA
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| Posted: Wed 04 Feb 2009 23:28 Post subject: |
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All that you say here appears confusing in a way, and yet somehow I understand completely. Weird, isn't it? Strange as it all seems, these are all thoughts that I've felt or encountered along the way, although maybe not all at once or even from myself personally.
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I have crawled my whole life while everyone spits at me, it is what feeds my apathy. I come from a world not everyone knows, especially some of you.
I appreciate the fact that you show kindness to me. I am truly grateful but I have a bad habit of making friends that turn their back on me just because of who I am, these are the reasons I say what I might say. Because I am afraid of this, I fear that if I let my guard down some one here will break me like everyone else. I hate this feeling, it kills me that I feel this hurtful. |
This sounds an awful lot like some of the internal problems that a very good friend of mine went through a couple years back. Over time he'd had several "anti"-awakenings so to speak, and didn't really go through them as painlessly as I've gone through mine. For my part, I could have been much more supportive and less bigoted--this was back in the days where I was still struggling to figure out what to do with my unpredictable temper.
It's a shame the friend in question was cut off from this site due to problems at his home. I think you would have liked Cyborg Dragon a lot. 
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| If there is anyone I really feel I can trust it would be Galadreil, Miru, and maybe Hyraxylos. Sorry if this sounds fruity, but it's true. |
I'm honestly flattered. I don't personally think so highly of myself that I couldn't have maybe treated you a bit better. :blush:
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| You have no idea how badly I want to let that all go, but the hold is just so strong, I respect everyone here you’re the first ones I feel that I can trust, that’s what I say what I say I know my trust was poorly shown on the book topic. |
I have some very good news, and it's that nobody cares so much about the mistakes that you've made except... well, you. Nobody can judge you more harshly than you can, and it's unfortunate that our guilt enjoys hitting below the belt by trying to deceive us into thinking that others are glaring at us when they really aren't.
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| I’ve never been good at concealing the hand that I play when I’m trying so hard just to beat this. All I can ask is for the chance to correct my wrongs thought the answer may be right in front of me, I doubt I will ever see it. I feel that through you I may have a chance. |
I can give you my word here and now that I personally don't feel anything negative toward you for it because I don't see any productivity that can come of harboring contempt where none is warranted. There've been times in the past though where I might have left that impression in some form or other, and in that case I'd rather be the one apologizing to you.
...Actually, on second thought I'd prefer nobody bother with any apologies. Let's instead simply take it for granted that we all enjoy sharing our experiences with one another. That is after all why we all come here, isn't it? For your part, I've enjoyed reading your observations and feel that you're brave to share them if what you really say is true about your fear of being taken apart. I actually have that same fear, and I suspect a great deal of others do too. But I crush that fear and spit on it because it's never delivered the protection that it always promises. You have more strength within than you know.
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Roark
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| Posted: Thu 05 Feb 2009 10:08 Post subject: |
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Would'nt it just be easier for you to say this to her yourself? After all you two are one if I'm not mistaken.
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I did say this between us, but I decided to tell it to you for reasons I don't even know. Guess I just wanted to let you know we're good.
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| Now I'm hoping that you mean this figuratively. I don't want to try an intervention when I have no means of doing so |
Of course not, I'd never take the easy way out.
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Miru
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Location: In my head, composing melodies of magic.
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| Posted: Thu 05 Feb 2009 11:08 Post subject: |
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Death is easy, doing what is right, because it is right, is hard.
I am here to say, I will not agree with everything you say every time, but I will help you if you ask for the help. That is what friends do, but don't think I won't pop you upside your head if you begin to act like an idiot. That's also my job as a friend.
Just know you aren't alone. Miru doesn't think so either.
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Roark
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| Posted: Fri 06 Feb 2009 6:48 Post subject: |
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I thank everyone for the words you've given, They will alway's be apart of me, they help me to see a little honosty in this world that doesnt share.
I hope I am one day able to say everything that is holding back.
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| Death is easy, doing what is right, because it is right, is hard. |
That it is, but I always do my best to do what's right.
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| but don't think I won't pop you upside your head if you begin to act like an idiot. That's also my job as a friend. |
Heh you don't have to worry if I'm acting stupid Auroara usually the one to whip me in line.
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| Just know you aren't alone. Miru doesn't think so either. |
I know I am not alone it just feels like that. I mean before I came here I really was alone, so I am trying the best I can, not to lose the best thing to ever happen to me.
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