dream help needed

[Jasriella]

Last night I had a rather scary dream. Not that I was scared in it, can't fathom why not and you'll be wondering the same thing shortyl, just what it may mean I find scary.

I'll write the dream out as best I can but I may get some of the order of things mixed around.

I'm in a gun battle. Not as a soldier although I feel like it, like maybe I had found a gun and decided to take arms with a militia or something. The setting I can't recall and I don't think there was much of one, perhaps a ruined city. We're on the retreat or fleeing, I don't think it really mattered. All I was trying to do was give whoever was behind me cover to get away. I found that whoever I was protecting I loved dearly, as if it was either the woman I have been dating for a few weeks or family. And I believe there may have been more than one that I was trying to save, I don't know. I'm returning fire as we move back. I'm using what apears to be something of a cross between an MP5 and an M16 and I watch as shells fly from my gun as I fire at whoever is attacking us, yelling at whoever it is that I'm trying to save to get down in this grate or hole type thing that we just found, or perhaps were trying to reach. They can't open it so I turn and blast a hole into the locking mechanism, loosening shells all over the area and it comes loose. At least one of them crawls in and when I turn one of the enemy is right in front of me. We lock eyes but their hollow and almost lifeless and he pulls up a handgun and puts it to my gut just below my rib cage and pulls the trigger. I feel the bullet tear through me and I fall back, coughing blood and realise that I'm going to die and I almost start to cry as I try to stop the bleeding, but as I put pressure over the wound my gut spasms and I cough more blood so I just lay there waiting for death to claim me. At first I'm sad that I had to go this way but then I realize that I'll die saving those that I love. The pain was unbearable at first but a soothing voice said it would be alright and it began to hurt less and less as I could feel the hole in my gut spill blood all over and then everything became white. I cocked an eybrow and tried looking around but everything was white. I felt I could move and my gut was fine but I was floating, or standing I couldn't really tell, in an endless white void with no emotion and the only thought of where am I.

I don't know what this is supposed to mean. It was vivid and as real as I've ever had. I just need some feedback as to what your guys's opinions are to what some details may represent or what the whole of this may mean.

It almost has a "vision" feel to it, like it did happen or may happen. I don't know but if its a telling of what may happen....oh I pray there is a way to change it.
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[QueenOfTheShadows]

I do not do dream interpretations my self very well, but we do have, or at least had a member here who would do them, their user name isVoxDraconis. Vox is approachable, when and if you can catch her (at leas I am pretty certain vox is female).

Vox is often gone from the site on a prolonged hiatus, though sadly she is the only person here that I know of who did dream interpretations regularly and publicly in my years on SDB. I would say contact her and ask her if she could spare a moment to run an interpretation, should there be time to spare for it.
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[Eternity]

Its hard to tell for sure without knowing you, but here are some thoughts:

The battle. Do you feel that you are in a battle now? Perhaps with your feelings towards someone, or is a certain situation a battle? Maybe even you are dreading a "battle" that is to come.

As for trying to protect....are you trying to protect from an outside force, or are you really trying to protect those you love from yourself? Maybe that enemy was actually how YOU are feeling; hollow and empty.

Dreams tend to be one of three things, or a mixture: clarification for how you are feeling, healing (mentally, or physically-- physically usually forewarns you of something that is to come, and I doubt that is the case with this dream), or a vision of sorts. It can be of the past (even a past life, if you believe in that) or something that may happen in this lifetime.

The most important thing about dreams is to be honest, if not brutally honest, with yourself and how you are feeling. While you may spens the waking hours trying to feel one way, in reality, your subconcious feels a different way, and that is what the dream is trying to make you aware of. The basic fight or flight instinct-- face your feelings, or deny them. Its ultimately up to you.

Hope this helps!

[Serenity]

Maybe the dream was a flashback from a past life? Hopefully the dream is not an event to come, which i doubt it is. I don't think that it has a particular meaning other than showing you how you may have died before. Or it could just be a crazy dream. I've had plenty of dreams of being killed and feeling the pain but they didn't/don't mean anything.

It's also possible that the dream is telling you that you would die to keep the ones you love safe. It could be telling you that you have a natural instinct to protect. Or as I said before it could be just a dream.
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[Jasriella]

[Hyraxylos]

[Jasriella]

[Eternity]

Going a bit off dream interpretation and more into the relationship advice, I'd say this:

Be yourself with her. If she doesn't like you for who you are, then she's obviously not the one. I'm sure you've heard the quote "Its better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you're not". How are you truly going to find your soulmate (assuming that is your goal) if you can't be yourself? How is she, or anyone else you care about, going to be able to see you, for who you are, if you don't let them?

Also, and I can't stress this enough: COMMUNICATE! I'd try saying something like: "Hey, I'm really worried about saying the wrong thing to you, because I really care about you a lot and want to be with you". Yeah, it might be uncomfortable to say, but don't you think it would be better?

Think about this scenario: if you DO say the wrong thing, would you rather her communicate it to you, and then be able to fix it, or her just storm off and break up with you? Communication is VITAL to ANY relationship. It can avoid disasterous misunderstandings.

I'm not an expert, and I'm not for a moment pretending to be. Its just that I've noticed that relationships that revolve around honesty and communication tend to work out better. If you think about it, I'm sure you'll agree.