Freedom and Light

[Hyraxylos]

Master is out. I released him from his prison a bit under a week ago. o.o;

No, he hasn't absorbed me, he hasn't gained the ability to seize control of my body or anything, and he isn't the one writing this. I decided on it when he said, in response to someone I was chatting with suggesting that we merge now and get it over with, that as things are he'd "rather not while [I'm] still alive" and also that his hunger for me was diminished considerably from what it had been. He hadn't said any of this to me before since I separated him from his past guilt a few months back, but then I hadn't asked or really thought about it. So I decided then to free him from my subconscious. Just figured I'd let him run around or something, I guess.
Surprisingly he tried to talk me out of it at first, but I went through with it. I opened the doors finally and we wandered around nowhere and just talked about life (lives?) in general. Rather than the nightmarish skeletal-looking thing before that made me want to throw up to look at, his form now resembled what Hyrax actually looked like except for a weird third eye positioned sideways on his forehead which kept opening and closing at random intervals. He still takes verbal shots at me now and again, and still pushes negative emotion at me sometimes, but he's not the same as he was. It's really strange to think on, since comparatively not long ago he'd sometimes smash himself against those huge doors in awful bouts of insanity, and now I can actually converse with him and get close without freaking out.
Master spends about 99% of the time lurking around in my subconscious despite being free to go wherever he wants (except away from me or into my conscious while I'm awake), probably out of attachment to his place. His former prison doesn't look the same either. Well actually the interior of it originally didn't look like ANYTHING--just a big empty nothing that he floated around in pointlessly. It now looks like a thick forest growth positioned just off an ocean coastline.
As always, there's not much point to my talking about this here except to get my feelings out and apparently SDB possesses the easiest atmosphere for me to do just that. I only wish I could go into a bit more detail though beyond simply listing more synonyms for the word "surreal". I'm happy for him and everything but it's like meeting a complete stranger for the first time, and that doesn't seem a fitting comparison to attach to Master, given that I was a copy of him.
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[Jasriella]

Well I don't think I have ever properly understood the literal meaning of what or who you have been referring to, if it has been metaphorical or literal as well. From what I have read through the past I gather that he is an ethereal being that has somewhat attatched itself to you and/or you to it. If I am wrong please correct me.

With my confusion aside. It is good that you managed to take control and pretty much gave him a rather life altering time out. Although things are obviously not the same any more there is no doubt that you both are better off now. He may be a bit confused now with the changes brought about but he'll learn to adapt and possibly accept how things have turned out and accept you, hopefully as a friend. Not like he has much of a choice .
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Hyraxylos]

Explanation of my dual spirituality here.

And he's quite literal. At moments when I suddenly sink into denial, Master's voice is the one part of the whole which will never fade away no matter how hard I reassure myself that he's not real.
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