Homesick when home?

[Jasriella]

Here's something I don't undestand. I bet you've all felt that homesick feeling when you've been away from home for a while. But what I don't get is when I'm at home I still have that feeling. It's like my home really isn't home. And when I think about it, I don't know where home is. If it sit there and think about it, there isn't anywhere here on Earth that I can call home. It doesn't matter where I'm at or who I'm with, it just doesn't feel right and never has, but lately I've been becomming more aware of it for some reason.
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Namhias]

That feeling is familiar to me. I too, have that from time to time. I think it's because I'm not really a human, so I feel like either I don't really belong here, or I get a feeling that can be described as homesickness from time to time.
Maybe it's part of being otherkin, we believe after all that we are not human, or at least feel connected to something other than human.

Truth is, you are on earth now, you are living in a human body and nothing can change it. I know that doesn't make it fair, but we are here now.

[Jasriella]

I think I wrote a small poem about this once come to think about it, Lost. My first one written here on SDB in fact!

Could be why I have no fear of death. I've had my fair share of near-death experiences and Queen knows what I'm talking about, and yet not a single one of them scared me. The most recent where I was knocked unconscious under water for a few minutes, I remember coming to under water and looking up wondering why was I still here. Then shortly made my way to the surface and suffered from a pounding headache for the next few days.

I've come to the conclusion that the only way I'm going to have a chance at going back to the way things should be and away from this world is death. No I don't openly ask for it and I'm not going to hasten its comings. I've got too much that I've worked for here to just drop it for what may very well be a hopeless dream of a deranged man. Plus I've got a woman I love back home and god/s know what she'll do if I just give up and kick the bucket.

When the time does come though, I'll welcome death with open arms and hope for the best. For now I don't have much of a choice in the matter anyway as I am a soldier and we rely on eachother to stay alive, brothers in arms, and I'll do my dambest to make sure they get home alive. I very well can't do that dead now can I?

But yeah, I just want to go home wherever that may be .
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Namhias]

*nods* I know the feeling...
I, too, have had my share with near-death encounters. We could discuss this over pm if you like?

Home does seem far away, doesn't it? But I can't complain, I have a life here now, with lots of friends. I still have so much to do around here, so much to find out, I Already feel like there isn't enough time.

[Hyraxylos]

I get a feeling of being drained when I'm in downtown, even though I was born here in Atlanta (which predictably I don't feel when I'm in nature areas), but when I was visiting cities in Europe I didn't get that sensation. For that matter, I also didn't get it when my family passed through New York that one time. I think in my case it's that some part of my brain acknowledges cities that have people walking around and socializing outdoors as "nature", whereas places like Atlanta feel "dead" because there's nothing happening outside buildings except cars.
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[Roark]

I know the feeling, every so often, I long to see my world again. The only solace I have is that it still exists somewhere. As does yours I'm sure Galadreil. Both of us understand what you’re going through, not a day goes by that Auroara misses her young ones. She wasn't around to watch them grow up, and that eats at her constantly. The point is that even though this doesn't feel like home, we have to make do with where we are. Every one of us on this site as well everyone of us, animal, human otherkin alike were put on this world for a reason. Whatever it is will I swear on my soul it will one day become clear one day. When it does that is when we'll find our way, just hang in there.
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The blood of that which you beleive run deep within, if you feel this then there is no need to doubt.

[Jasriella]

I've been noticing all this hype starting up on the Discovery channel about the apocolypse. Anything from the Antichrist to the predicted solar flare that'll wipe out life on Earth of which the Mayans calculated to be 2012.

I don't know but I've been noticing a few coincedences of a few things I've discussed with a few of you and the current events. These coincedences couple with the coincedences of these predictions from well over a couple milleniums ago, it's getting interesting.

The funny thing is though, I don't have a single shred of fear for the so called end of the world. If anything I feel apprehensive, almost anxious and eager, for this day to come. Most likely I've been tricking myself and my mind has begun to manifest some of these things that I've concluded. But it's all so strange, of how the pieces are slowly beginning to fit together. And yet I have this funny feeling that I'll have something to do with it.

One thing to note, by 2012 I'll have been an active duty soldier for two years and possibly corprol or a warrent officer. I'll be a fully active soldier then. Another odd coincedence.
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[Ellysium]

I have that same feeling of homesickness and longing when I look up at the stars or look at pictures of galaxies and space in general.