Event log

[CB]

Well, after another long discusion with Galadriel, I finally decided I do not care if it make sence, or that I have only minor events to go by...I truely feel in my heart I am otherkin, dragonkin to be specific.

There I said it. That was last night, and ever since then I feel at peace with myself. When I feel an urge to curl my fingers, sit weird, or want to be on top a roof, I will not attack myself anymore, I will just see where it takes me.

With that out of the way...

I think it would be good to start an official thread for otherkin related memories, dreams, occurences etc. I will start obviously, but I think Galadriel will have one too.

But anyways last night I got that tingling sensation on my back again, right on my left shoulder, the same kind I ussually dismiss as my bedspread, but this time instead of dismissing it I focused in on it.

After a little bit, the feeling spread to my other shoulderblade, then it also developed on the center of my lower back, and eventually the sensation covered my entire back. After that I started feeling like something else was coming out from it, but at that moment I flinched and arced my back backwards suddenly, and the feeling slowly went away again...

Then go figure I went to sleep and dreamed I was a survivor in left4dead who was slowly becoming a smoker (the in game special undead), and I dont even play that game, wtf

Got to love how out of tune your dreams can be with yourself sometimes, almost contradicts itself when they become more serious.

But I digress, please add exeriences and events below.
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[Daragon]

Thank you for starting this! I was going to get around to it, but short term memory loss and shyness got the better of me...

Oh, and congragulations on finalizing your decision!

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I do get feelings of phantom limbs, but I can't get rid of them when I try...I have to wait. Search me. I haven't a clue. I've looked for explanations, but can never find them, so I just accept it.

I DID hallucinate that my eyes were (vertically) slitted. I KNOW I hallucinated, but I swear, this links in with other occurences...

I keep having dreams I'm a dragon, or choosing between dragon or man...

The oddity of it all...I'm still figuring out how it all links...
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[Jasriella]

Well I guess it was about time you got to getting me to do something.

Last night as we were MSNing back and forth and CB finally decided he was dragon-kin, he asked me what I looked like as a dragon. Well I've never really seen myself, and honestly the only time you normally do is pictures or a mirror, and back then I doubt there were even mirrors. So all I've got to go off of is first person view. Plus I've never really had definitive view of myself anyway.

But when CB asked me what I looked like, I had about a 1 second hallucination of myself as a complete dragon. Something that definitely has never happened before or remotely close. Color, shape, whatever I could see from my own eyes anyway.

I don't think I have ever been this nervous and confused about myself in quite a while, it was almost exhilarating but terrifying at the same time. But last time I tried to force it down with the notion that I fully accept being dragon, I was scared, but now I know and I want to exploit it. I'm certain now that I was either color-blind, or close to being what would a silver be considered, more so gray or a unpolished metal colored.

My forelimbs were a bit smaller than my rear ones. Though still built for walking on all fours, my forelimbs seemed to be more geared for more complicated actions besides walking/running/gutting prey. Three toes on the front and rear. On the front there was a thumb claw, no aposable thumb, but a claw where one might've been. On the rear feet the toes were thicker, claws bigger, and the 4th claw was at the side of the heel still pointing mostly towards the tail.

The backside of my forelimbs had plates, or something resembling plates. Rather circular running up to my shoulders and overlapping. I could only see the "hand" and end portion of my wings and it's the same as I've been drawing so nothing surprising there. My underside was definitely plated in a similar fashion as a snake, and not much harder, just thicker. My whole flesh was scaley, much resembling a lizard's skin. Couldn't see much of my tail besides the underside as I was sitting this whole time but the snake-style belly pattern played all the way to the tip which slightly hung off the edge of my bed. Couldn't see my face at all as I said, this was all in first person as it always has been, though there were distinct protrusions from the back of my head and ridges along my spine.

Anyway, that's what I saw when CB asked for a short moment and then went back to normal, though I was having trouble typing for a bit. My fingers felt numb and didn't get feeling back in them for a little bit when I started doing dishes. Quite the distinct hallucination, but I don't know what else to call it. Mind playing games with me I guess.
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I am trapped between heaven and hell. My wings carry me upon the winds. Above lies heaven, below hell. Yet I must land in hell to soar in heaven. I am a Dragon!

[CB]

playing games?

I know you believe differently, no need to hide it lol.
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