Can't be normal

[Dacorian]

A double line of thought and feeling is a weird phenomenon that is difficult to hide from others but it feels that you are not alone in your body and that is so weird because in the end you're still alone, and yet not, hard to explain. The Dragon in you has seen much history, perhaps more than a hundred years he or she lived in far bygone time. I suspect that millenniums later, death erased the largest reminders on that life you once had , It's like if you have a pot of empty mayonnaise, there are still remnants inside and that treasons the taste in this pot. What i try to say is, what you feel is a remnant of what you ever have been, a dragon. other people and animals also have the same symptoms, but usually it's not about dragons.

However, this is not a religious thing with souls and stuff or an eastern so-called re-incarnation. This is a natural reaction in which the circle of life continues to exist and death doesn't know time and space, It just goes further in another envelope with remnants of a previous body and thought. We have to deal with the accident that we once have been like that because ultimately it is an unproven fact that it ever existed But proof that to someone if everything is set in your head and body.

I would like to believe that the Dragon is a kind of god, however, I learned that there are no gods that look down on us, we are alone and we deal with heavy producing flesh and blood that walks with us on the streets. I've learned that I am the one dragon but never will be like other people because of that. I often hear ambiguity between the other dragonkin and with various manifestations which I total no longer agree with. Unfortunately, the Dragon is a being who is loved with lots of people and they often start to fantasize stuff about death and life between "evil" humans and that is pity, I wish I was a pigkin, then it has been easier to have a good life and to be understood. It's because I am a dragon I had a difficult life In recent years and it's eating me alive. There is still many corrupted mayonnaise in my jar that will never go away.
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My thoughts are not pure, white doesn't exist in my eye's.

[Namhias]

Internal struggles can be hard to deal with, and I think everybody has them from time to time. Maybe especially dragons, or other otherkin for that matter. I believe though, that in the end, such struggles can make someone a better person. We're here to support anyone who is going through a difficult time because of their draconity.

I think that draconity has a different meaning for every dragon, some may experience it as a part of who they are on a very deep level, others as a separate entity, and others as something different entirely.

You said:

[Dacorian]

It's often to different stories that do not maintain any realistic images about the former life and their stories have obvious other universes and life habits that especially about to come epic and their stories are often not matched afterwards if they should repeat this. For years I've read about this standard of living of the so-called last existence of the dragonkin and it's because of that that I doubted about my own experiences which were not so, who were earlier of course, predator instinct, (incredibly sensitive producing), no real opinion about the appearance because I have seen no mirror. Things like that.

Last year I've gone a bit too far because I was sick and tired of going to listen to their self admiration. Beside their beautiful appearance I believe that there is no admiration in a dragon, it will show no mercy to other living beings and has not much conscience but an incredible intellect and wisdom with which I agree with most other kin 's and of course, it's very natural and pure, unlike people and I admire the purity in the Dragon is a part of myself that remained but not performed by a life that required me to wear a mask to hide the dragon's face. It has made me gentle, all pulled back and isolated.
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My thoughts are not pure, white doesn't exist in my eye's.

[Obsidian]

[Namhias]

I have to agree with Obsidian about those people. Sure, the otherkin world knows a lot of drama, but not everything can be shot down immediately. Most often the trolls or the roleplayers can be easily identified. Grand claims are usually false, and sometimes you have to take things with a pinch of salt.

You described what a dragon is, in your opinion. Though there are also other opinions. My point is to be open to other ideas, but don't be gullible, which I think you aren't.